With patience things get better.

  "SONGS OF SILENT SORROW"  "And when the music plays & when the words are touched with sorrows." And when the words are touched with sorrow... when you have lost a loved one to suicide, you often find solace in music - songs of silent sorrow that your heart cherishes as a remembrance of the love you lost. You do not sing along when you hear these songs, but listen quietly, solemnly - for these songs are like prayers. As you listen, you may mouth the words as tear drops slide softly down your cheeks. But you are not alone in your silent sorrow, for in that brief moment in time you are with your loved one. And as the tears dry, you smile knowing. "LOVE WAS ALL WE KNEW & ALL I KNEW WAS YOU."                    

  A SILENT SENSATION 'I'll remember how I loved you, with my whole being' My hands turn cold & stoic, each time you say you love me. i know you mean it, but don't think you observed the dimensions we were in. we were engineered to be together, but not meant to be. we were articulately, placed in each others path, like a game of some sort. im sure the universe must've had a good laugh at our eternal promises & lifelong commitment. We were mere pawns, characters, part of a fixed game. A perfect recipe of disaster. i ache to tell you i love you. but what's the point of if when i know our routes go different ways?   But i will tell you, that ill remember you even when after we are over. & ill remember how i loved you with my whole being. Maybe ill even tell you i do, in an alternate universe, in another dimension.                                      ...

SORTS OF DOTINGS IN LIFE   It is quoted "True love is eternal, infinite, & always like itself. its equal & pure, without violent demonstrations. it is seen with white hairs & is always young in the heart."    Love is not a desire. It is a great thing to find out this for oneself. & if love is not desire then what is Love? love is not mere attachment to your baby, love is not attachment in any form; love is not jealousy, ambition, fulfilment or becoming; love is not desire or pleasure.    "we fall in love with 3 people in our lifetime. Each one for a specific reason.  FIRST LOVE; This love often happens at a young age. you eventually grow apart or call it quits over silly things. when you get older you may look back & think it was not love. but the truth is, it was. it was love for what you knew love to be.  Remember; there are different depths of love.   Second love ; the hard one. you get hurt in this one. this love ...

 -Pain over love, you the most beautiful regret...   My soul always been a dark place but you the most beautiful regret I have had, yet I choose you over again & again. Pain over love, maybe this is why one sided is always pure. There’s something about you I don’t wanna lose, which makes me want you more.  Ever since you left, I’ve forgotten the taste of love.

-Love shouldn't be chased, it will come to you along your way. maybe when you're in the darkest nights or something in a moment realizing how messy your life is, the wait is always worth it. Maybe you have fallen in love before, & it didn't last. maybe you've been hurt for a while not to think of falling in love again. maybe you've surrounded yourself with emptiness, pain & regrets. maybe you don't have the courage to fall in love anymore, & it's quite natural to feel, especially when you've seen promises broken, situations turning worse & mostly losing a part of you. But just when you take your time, in accepting your shades, you're getting there, in process of loving yourself, for the way you are, & it's pretty attractive. the scars lefts behind by the heartbreak are meant to be embraced, are meant to be loved, with your soul & heart. the voids left behind are meant to be filled with your love, & once you love you...