With patience things get better.

I tried for so long to convince myself & everyone around me that I didn't want or need love. I would always say that love was for the fools that wanted their hearts broken because that was what would always happen. I'd push away the ones that vied for my attention, saying I didn't buy into the happily ever after & fairy tale stuff. but if I'm being honest with myself, I always really wanted to love & be loved. It's just that I was afraid of so many things that I let them cloud my vision while walling off my heart. I was scared that I would let myself get attached to someone only not to be loved back. having my heart broken by such rejection was a thought I couldn't bear. I feared the pain of rejection & loss would be far greater than anything I could be missing out on.  Truth is, I didn't know much about real & lasting love, my only knowledge came from little love affairs & summer romances.  Not really the stuff that makes one dream o...