-Heart Trilogy!

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I tried for so long to convince myself & everyone around me that I didn't want or need love. I would always say that love was for the fools that wanted their hearts broken because that was what would always happen.

I'd push away the ones that vied for my attention, saying I didn't buy into the happily ever after & fairy tale stuff. but if I'm being honest with myself, I always really wanted to love & be loved.

It's just that I was afraid of so many things that I let them cloud my vision while walling off my heart. I was scared that I would let myself get attached to someone only not to be loved back. having my heart broken by such rejection was a thought I couldn't bear. I feared the pain of rejection & loss would be far greater than anything I could be missing out on. Truth is, I didn't know much about real & lasting love, my only knowledge came from little love affairs & summer romances. Not really the stuff that makes one dream of everlasting love stories.

They said everything happens for a reason, but it was up to me to find out the WHY behind it all. so, feeling safe behind the high walls I'd built around my heart, I continued to live my life- love or no love. whenever someone would bring up romance & ask me if I had someone, I'd simply shrug it off & say it wasn't for me. 
Deep down though, I couldn't help but feel the tug on my heart that something was missing in my life. I'd lie in bed at night & my thoughts would drift off to love- & secretly, I longed to know the intense passion of an emotion that I had only barely left. 

It's funny though, how life works- unexpectedly, beautifully & a little scary at times. but they say when you know, you can't deny that love has found you. & when the door opened & my eyes met the gaze of another on that blustery winter day. my heart skipped a beat & I found myself holding my breath. At that moment, all my fear & worry about love melted away as our souls collided. 

I didn't know what tomorrow may bring, but just the slightest touch of love's inescapable breath gave life to dreams & hopes id never known before. & now I finally knew why it was worth it to risk it all for love. I would never be the same, & now, I didn't want to be. 

LOVE WAS ALWAYS THE ANSWER TO THE QUESTIONS I HAD BEEN ASKING ALL ALONG. 

NO FEAR.....ONLY LOVE

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