all we have is now....

 

The truth is healing is the scariest thing you can go through. you could be broken into million pieces & you could have no idea what fits where anymore. as much as you want to heal, as much as you want to feel alive once again, you know there is a part of you that is terrified of uncovering what is behind you own closed doors.

People tell us all the times that healing comes from within. But you are the only one that knows your ego too well. it sends you chills down your spine when you try to feel the pain that's been gnawing its way into your nightmares. it tells you that if you grow, if you move on, you will realize that everything you have experienced so far is a lie & that is about to change.

When thus happens, keep in mind that healing that begin in the weirdest of places. it can begin when you are breaking down in the arms of someone you barely know. it can begin when you are at the brim of helplessness. it can begin from the moment of knowing that you have no control over anything that happens to you. it can be in the guilt you feel when you indulge in things that make you happy.

& no matter how, when, or where it begins, be prepared to be scared. be prepared to quit every single day. it is not going to be easy. but this is the way you can hold a hand out to your own self from the depth of pain. this is the way you make yourself be more receptive to this moment, this life.