RELATIONSHIPS..

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  RELATIONSHIPS

Which we embraced falling in friendship love & magic of friendship love in general. it really is such a magnificent, kindred soul-shifting experience that can manifest in soo many wonderfully different ways. it truly deserves its own genre of art, movies/tv, writing, music.

My friends have saved my life. they have been there for me in some of my most darkest & joyful times. they have romanced me & I them.

They occupy such an important part of what love is & can be. they don't diminish other forms of love, they enhance them.

They are a unique kind of home & belongings esp. for me as a queer, disabled adoptee, woman of color, survivor.

Friendship break-ups can bring you to your knees & lay you out in bone-cold-misery. they are a particular kind of gut-wrenching heartbreak that you go through, often without the kind of support or understanding or commiseration that other break-ups gets.

Anyways, i just want more arts & books & series & songs about friendship. I just want more conversation & spaces for us to be able to talk about our friendships in. I want more language, nuance & exploration. 

Because I love my friends deeply & I would not be here without them. -fq

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