I,ME,MYSELF

I've got soo many days in my life when I cried so hard, I thought I won't ever get out of that phase alive---vision was blurry due to tears, I couldn't catch sight of the light at the end of the tunnel I was in; barely breathing & too exhausted to go. I even told myself that, that was it, the end of me. when people asked how I was doing that time, I just laughed, for words weren't enough to explain the situation--I just smiled & said I was doing fine, when in fact, I didn't know if they would see me the other day. 

Today, I remembered one of those times & managed to laugh, not because what I have gone through was funny, but I can't believe that I am still here--kicking & breathing. my "who-would-have-thought" moment in life. I know, I still have days to face another sadness ahead of me, & I am aware that I will do those same things I had done before, for it is a cycle, really. I will get sad, will weep it all out thinking there would be no tomorrow anymore for me, but I will laugh because of it, for I will pass through it once more. 

I will let out a burst of laughter, not as a coping mechanism to hide the sorrow within--but for simply announcing to the world that I make it & I will make it again & again.