-ON SOUND OF OUR SILENCE.

 

I like the sound of our silence, the one in which you & I talk a lot but no words come out. sometimes, I wonder if this will lead to things being unsaid. but with time, I have learned that people will only understand what they want to, no matter what we try to say.

You have held my hands through times I didn't know any better about myself & refused to give up. it makes me look back to the person I once was, the one who watched the last drop of tear drain merely from trying to get as much as a speck of care in places I didn't belong. for a person who has lost the fight from within, this silence is a welcome change to her chaos. 

I know. it is a tough lesson to learn, to let my guard down, to allow myself to be vulnerable & feel in ways I have known hell through. & maybe, just maybe, there will come a day when that light of hope will start flickering in me again, showing the path to be liberated from the gripping fear of loss. when that day comes, I will find the courage to look you in the eye & tell you that I am willing to walk down this road with you. when that day comes, I will feel worthy enough of this silence, worthy of the calmness it comes with. when that day comes, I will not be afraid of letting go, for I know YOU will come back.