-On The Verge Of Unloving You !

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I am on the verge of unloving you. I have reasons piled up till my neck to leave you behind & not look back. but that's the thing about love, right? the more you let it go, the more it comes back.

Yours is the kind of love that made me feel for the first time that it is here to stay. & before I could trust it enough & wrap my arms around it, I was way too far from the boundaries. That's when I realise maybe the right decisions are the ones that hurt the most. 

You promised a life of happiness, not fully knowing the weight of those words for a person who is constantly running away from it. 

If shit goes sideways, I may not fight for you the way you would for me. but I will choose to relieve all the memories of us, until when that's all I would have left. if there's one thing I know for sure, it is that you would move heaven & earth for me even if I didn't ask you for it. I remember how you looked into my eyes & said that we are meant to be. you said holding my hand was the only thing that felt right. you said you felt belonged to me. Love like this is terrifying. 

Because even when we are not together, I know your mind wanders around me, searching for ways to love me more despite the distance.

& I? even when I am right next to you, my mind is far away in the distant future, searching for ways to protect you from me. 


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