It Ends Here...

He thought he was better off leaving me, under the impression that he could find better. I'm the first to say that he won't find better than me because I loved him in a way that he'll never find again. I gave him all of me, heart, mind, & soul in such a way that built him up so far that he thought he was better than me. 
All I can do is shake my head & walk the other way, because I know that sooner or later, ill hear him knocking on my door, wanting me back. 
Once I would have run to him & embraced him with open arms. 
Now I've realized that he'll never really understand the true beauty of what we had & the awesome person I am. most never really realize the amazingness of our type of love story, because they've never known love like ours...& sadly he is among those who never grasped it either. he could never put us before his ego, so he let the best thing that ever happened to him slip through his fingers. 
Instead of growing together & building a wonderful future, he chose to focus only on himself & think that he was better than me.. & nothing could be further from the truth. One day he'll wake up & see that he let amazing women walk out of his life.  but by then, I'll be a faded memory. I'm not chasing his love anymore, I'm focusing on me like I should have a long time ago. 
So, he'll chase. 
He'll call. 
He'll say everything he thinks I want to hear...
Only now his words will fall on deaf ears...
Mine, because I'll have long since moved on.
& as he sits & stares at the place in his bed where I once slept, maybe he'll finally get it. 
I wasn't ever the one he left behind, I was the one he let get away...
& for the rest of his life, he'll have to live with that. I hope he learns the lesson. I was worth it all. I always will be. Now & forever. 
& I see it, even if he never did.